That’s it, I give up.

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I made a decision twenty years ago.

I decided that I would set creative writing to one side so that I could focus on obtaining what some people would call ‘a real profession’.

Ten years ago, I decided I couldn’t avoid writing any more without some part of me dying, so I started writing creatively again as a ‘hobbyist’.

Being a hobbyist isn’t enough for me.

Having a ‘professional’ job hasn’t gotten me all that I hoped it would. Furthermore, it costs me emotional energy, enthusiasm, and creativity. Having spent those pennies at work, I have little-to-nothing to put into writing projects.

That’s gotten even worse since I started looking for a new (white collar professional) job. I’ve had even less zazz. This is because I experience looking for work to be twice as draining as actually working the job. Writing has slowed to a trickle.  Why in the world should I try so hard for a job I don’t actually want to do?

So I’ve decided to give up.

That’s it. I quit. Don’t want to do it anymore. Not gonna do it anymore.

I hereby resign from the world of white collar professionalism.

Enough is enough.

I am going to get a J-O-B that pays the bills that I can do in my sleep.  Then I will write my ass off.

 

 

Starting Where You Are

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“Gary’s Eyes are Gone”  conte drawing Chloe Cocking  Gary’s eyes are gone, jury’s out on whether mine are, too . Photo Chloe Cocking

It seems to me that creative or artistic development has intimate links with self-development.

To the degree that I am not writing and painting, I am not being with myself. (Cue the distinction between be-ing and do-ing). I spend a certain amount of time resisting my own muse by doing. I dunno why.

The upshot is I am often not a human being, I’m a human doing. I run around Getting Thing Done ™- things that I don’t actually want to do, things that probably don’t matter, things that get me nothing and waste the ‘good’ hours of the day.

So I read this and found things in there I liked, including this remark:

You always start with where you are and work from there no matter what stage you’re at or how much work you’ve already done

I think this is as close as I am going to get to a New Years resolution- Chloe, start where you are.

Hello 2016 and a quote

Hello 2016! This year DWSG will publish on Mondays, Wednesdays and Fridays.

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Something to think about:

“One does not become enlightened by imagining figures of light but by making the darkness conscious” – Carl Jung